Overcoming Generational Sin and Becoming a Small Group Leader

Hosting lunch for 2 students during our discipleship school's women's weekend stay at our intern house.

“My mother and the women before her never had the opportunity to talk openly about purity. These things were kept under the cover,” I told my pastoral overseer as we sat on the sidewalk outside the interns’ house.

After she gave me practical guidance on setting boundaries against sexual immorality and shared our Heavenly Father’s heart behind it, she asked me to pray a prayer of repentance. As I brought into the light the things I had been struggling with, I began to weep. Freedom met me in that moment. Steph, my pastoral overseer, prayed a prayer of agreement over me, affirming my repentance and what the Lord had exposed in my heart. Then she hugged me. My soul felt at peace.

That day marked the beginning of my weekly accountability — a commitment to close every door to sexual immorality, so that I would walk in purity and consecration in my heart, and therefore thoughts.

Over the past month, as our team prepares for our 21‑day prayer strike in T‑nation, the frequency of mental attacks and temptations towards me has increased drastically. “This is an open door we want to see fully closed before we head out to Asia,” Steph said during one of our check‑ins. I agreed, both verbally and in my heart. Because T‑nation is a place where sexual immorality is prevalent, yet God’s heart is for redemption and freedom through the gospel.

I’ve been entrusted with three students as part of the small group I’ll be co-leading in, during our summer prayer assignment. Our group is called Malachi. Though their pastoral guidance is under Contend’s discipleship school, I want my life to be a living example of what it means to be above reproach — both inside and outside the prayer room and not only in my actions but in my thoughts (1 Timothy 3:1–2). That I would one day be able to help women walk in purity and consecration like my pastoral overseer does!